High Water

High Water Ready, Steady, Agonize 2009-10-17T05:40:39+09:00 Lapis Lazuli 忍者ブログ dunkel.or-hell.com://entry/44 2012-01-11T22:26:22+09:00 2012-01-11T22:26:22+09:00 E. A. Robinson's "Lancelot", excerpt All night the rain came down on Joyous Gard;
And all night, there before the crumbling embers
That faded into feathery death-like dust,
Lancelot sat and heard it. He saw not
The fire that died, but he heard rain that fell
On all those graves around him and those years
Behind him; and when dawn came, he was cold.
At last he rose, and for a time stood seeing
The place where she had been. She was not there;
He was not sure that she had ever been there;
He was not sure there was a Queen, or a King,
Or a world with kingdoms on it. He was cold.
He was not sure of anything but the Light--
The Light he saw not. "And I shall not see it,"
He thought, "so long as I kill men for Gawaine.
If I kill him, I may as well kill myself;
And I have killed his brothers." He tried to sleep,
But rain had washed the sleep out of his life,
And there was no more sleep. When he awoke,
He did not know that he had been asleep;
And the same rain was falling. At some strange hour
It ceased, and there was light. And seven days after,
With a cavalcade of silent men and women,
The Queen rode into Camelot, where the King was,
And Lancelot rode grimly at her side.

When he rode home again to Joyous Gard,
The storm in Gawaine's eyes and the King's word
Of banishment attended him. "Gawaine
Will give the King no peace," Lionel said;
And Lancelot said after him, "Therefore
The King will have no peace."--And so it was
That Lancelot, with many of Arthur's knights
That were not Arthur's now, sailed out one day
From Cardiff to Bayonne, where soon Gawaine,
The King, and the King's army followed them,
For longer sorrow and for longer war.

つづきはこちら]]> Lapis Lazuli dunkel.or-hell.com://entry/43 2011-01-02T11:50:13+09:00 2011-01-02T11:50:13+09:00 泰山泰山 Mount Tai

]]> Lapis Lazuli dunkel.or-hell.com://entry/41 2010-04-22T17:45:31+09:00 2010-04-22T17:45:31+09:00 無題比如说，为什么仅仅是没有努力于让自己变得乐观，就变成对方眼里的不努力了呢？一直都扮演向上的车轮不就可以了吗，何必要把调低期望值的强迫症也手术切除掉呢。
还比如说，伤口不自己舔，又能怎么样呢，让别人来替自己舔吗，那样不是太过分了吗？
所以说为什么明明是自己选择了耽于这种模式，还是在被说中的时候咬牙切齿大叫我氧化钙呢……

　
E -性格基因
　　　　你是个自我压抑的人，对于事情的看法比较悲观，虽然害怕挫折和痛苦，面对变局时，仍能冷静以对，这是你最与众不同之处。你的成长过程并不如外界或自己期待的顺利，感情的路走来也不算顺遂。身心的负面经验，让你自小就比一般人来得早熟，对于死亡与性的感受深刻，一生似乎都在这两个议题中打转。对于自我要求相当严格的你，全身上下总是上紧发条，很难完全放松。你要小心自己有自残或习惯自舔伤口的倾向。对于喜欢的事物，可以一头栽进去而无法自拔，对于不感兴趣的事物，则是碰都不想碰，对于人你也是如此。
　　　　-生命路线
　　　　你是一个意志力很强、干练、早熟，但不怎么快乐的人，不管年纪多大，总是给人一种老成的感觉。如何变得更豁达、真正快乐的善待自己，是你必须致力的课题。你性格的矛盾和痛苦点，经常透过感情和与家人的互动展现出来。经常为他人牺牲，但末了又会心不甘情不愿，这样的人生是浪费能量且毫无意义的。对于酒精、咖啡因、尼古丁和药物的摄取量要节制，否则会受制于这些有害物质。性的压抑会衍生成对很多事物的不满。学会用“减法”过日子，才能真正领悟有“舍”才有“得”的道理。

]]> Lapis Lazuli dunkel.or-hell.com://entry/40 2010-04-08T11:52:13+09:00 2010-04-08T11:52:13+09:00 婆媳杰克逊
开场是一个小黑屋，一个小犹太正在努力地训练屋里面的一圈妖精不要互相打架，眼见他怎么学也学不会，老师愤怒地喝茶去了，说时迟那时快，小犹太一不小心把老师的宠物，一个气球形状的妖精吞下去了！马上，他发现自己的体积迅速增大！比重迅速减小！嘴上长出了ws的小胡子！脸迅速变成了大叔脸！他在往窗外飘的过程中，还不可避免地被窗户勾掉了裤子，于是就以一个没穿裤子的气球大叔的形状飘在方形公寓楼的天井上方，发出了哀叹：哎，为什么人总是在变老呢，就好像你刚刚才一岁，马上就变成一岁零一天了呢。
小犹太年迈的父亲此时更是惊恐万状，因为儿子没法去完成任务了，结果只能由他去盗火了。
这时候女配和男配以青春中学生的身份出场，捡到了没穿裤子的气球大叔，并且开展了他们的旅途…

电影海报是左边一个没穿裤子的气球大叔，中间是女配，右边是男配。

]]> Lapis Lazuli dunkel.or-hell.com://entry/39 2010-04-04T18:18:22+09:00 2010-04-04T18:18:22+09:00 梦里面南极大体长这样

]]> Lapis Lazuli dunkel.or-hell.com://entry/38 2010-03-15T18:05:34+09:00 2010-03-15T18:05:34+09:00 感时花溅泪今天早上打开电脑收到的消息

不知道该说是个性悲观还是阴暗，以前他每次消失一段时间，我都想到过会有今天
但是真的听说了这个消息之后仍然感觉毫无准备
毕竟几年来每次消失期结束都能转个弯就看见这个人出没
一天下来还是虚幻感强烈得很

前一段时间通勤路上发呆还想到过他，包括最后一次消失前还在blog上调侃过的，快点生小孩的事情
其实每次发现自己这样一个人发呆地想念某位朋友之后都觉得自己有点pathetic
因为这样只能说明已经很久没有曾有过的联络了
多数是我自己逃避症的原因，这也检讨多次了不过没有哪次改变得成过

只是对于这位朋友来说，从今以后也只有发呆想念这么一个选择了
哪怕是一直以来都认为非常特别的一个朋友

虽然大概传达不到了，不过

能够认识你很开心
May You Rest In Peace

]]> Lapis Lazuli dunkel.or-hell.com://entry/37 2009-12-29T10:46:35+09:00 2009-12-29T10:46:35+09:00 無題
How leaky are the borders of man-made states!
How many clouds float over them scot-free,
how many desert sands sift from country to country,
how many mountain pebbles roll onto foreign turf
in provocative leaps!

Need I cite each and every bird as it flies,
or alights, as now, on the lowered gate?
Even if it be a sparrow— its tail is abroad,
though its beak is still home. As if that weren’t enough— it keeps fidgeting!

Out of countless insects I will single out the ant,
who, between the guard’s left and right boots,
feels unobliged to answer questions of origin and destination.

If only this whole mess could be seen at once in detail
on every continent!
Isn’t that a privet on the opposite bank
smuggling its hundred-thousandth leaf across the river?
Who else but the squid, brazenly long-armed,
would violate the sacred territorial waters?

How can we speak of any semblance of order
when we can’t rearrange the stars,
to know which one shines for whom?

Not to mention the reprehensible spreading of fog!
Or the dusting of the steppe over its entire range
as though it weren’t split in two!
Or voices carried over accommodating air waves:
summoning squeals and suggestive gurgles!

Only what’s human can be truly alien.
The rest is mixed forest, undermining moles, and wind.

—Wisława Szymborska
—translated from the Polish by Joanna Trzeciak
]]> Lapis Lazuli dunkel.or-hell.com://entry/36 2009-12-24T01:47:43+09:00 2009-12-24T01:47:43+09:00 無題 “老毛不是我的人生偶像，老毛是我做人的底线。”
]]> Lapis Lazuli dunkel.or-hell.com://entry/35 2009-12-22T05:01:52+09:00 2009-12-22T05:01:52+09:00 内牛

Slovenes have apparently always had a kind of schizophrenic love-hate relationship with their language. Language was and still is their untouchable relic, a national value or treasure, something always to talk about when a new pravopis or grammar comes out, but at the same time something to forget about as soon as confronted with a non-Slovene speaker in Belgrade or abroad or even in Slovenia itself. If there is one problem area which generates most heat and serves as a catalyst for current value-oriented discussion, it is the Slovenian-Serbo-Croatian language contact.

反正这孩子就是彻底被阿妈带坏了，指（指谁啊你

]]> Lapis Lazuli dunkel.or-hell.com://entry/34 2009-12-21T13:07:41+09:00 2009-12-21T13:07:41+09:00 屋大维同志 octavius

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